Marriage and and that dang oak tree 🌳

This past week involved lots of valentines shopping , finding the perfect card, and decorating . I love Valentine’s Day because it gives me a day to be extra gushy.... because I love some gushy love y’all. Valentines decorations are so fu, the little happys are to die for , and the desserts are the dang cutest . After a week of running around doing things for Valentine’s Day , my mind started thinking of all kind of things love related . I started thinking about how incredible love really is and what it really means . I started thinking about my husband . My mind started turning . In a world where love is portrayed to be so surface, selfish, not pure and definitely not patient , I started thinking of my marriage, and marriage period .  Ok ok hold on, I’m not about to get all gushy. Promise . I want to share the thoughts I had for two reasons . One reason is because I am so incredibly blessed to have a husband who has taught me what love really truly means . His selfless acts of love remind me of what love is .  Secondly I wanted to share because I’ve never seen marriage attacked like it is today, especially with people my age. People get unhappy and they just walk away not realizing that walking away is not the answer . People think the grass is greener and well, it ain’t . 

 Marriage is something of great importance. It is a promise, a sacrifice, a test of your patience, your loyalty, and of your faith. No marriage is the same, just like no two people are identical. No marriage is perfect, just as no person is flawless. 

Here’s where my mind wondered as I enjoyed the warm day we had Friday. As I looked up in to the trees I started thinking of something kind of funny but totally made sense to me . 

Okay, so when you first get married, basically you have before you a huge oak tree (the oak represents marriage). You didn't plant it, you didn't watch it grow, you just have this massive freakin' tree. Just smack in the front of your lawn. Bam! Someone hands you this huge freakin' oak! You look at it all proud, and so excited, and you're over the moon. Then, you realize it is summer (or the newlywed/honeymoon stage of your marriage), and all you have to do is water it. Not so hard right? So you know, every so often you give it the love and attention it needs, and you water it. Easy enough , right ??

But then, fall comes (the next "season" of a marriage). That's when you realize that this huge oak does this crazy thing! Oh crap, it sheds! It just leaves this huge leafs everywhere! So imagine you have O.C.D! You're pissed, but you love this oak, so you suck it up, and you rake them leaves girl. You take and rake rake, and rake, and then you rake some more. Finally all that tree's leaves are raked up. Phew. Or so you think.

So, you stand back, and you look at that huge pile of leaves you cleaned up, and you're all hell yea! That's better. But then, the tree does the unthinkable. It's still fall, so more leafs fall. They keep falling. One after another after another. The leafs here represent the flaws and problems you and your spouse start to have. Sorry, the honeymoon is over! Suddenly, this tree is starting to require a lot more work, and you have no idea what you are doing, so you are just going with it. This is hard stage.

Winter rolls around, and it has no mercy. Now, you've got this huge dead tree, and it's not pretty at all. It's so ugly, you don't even want to look at it. Now you have two choices, give it a trim, and hope that it helps to restore the luster. . . eventually, or just say "well, it's dead," and give up on the tree. You act like it’s even not there hair the time . Sometimes you might even decide to buy something that will be prettier to look at . You Just abandoning the tree even though it’s still there .  Winter, in this case, represents the unresolved problems that seem to make or break a marriage. The potential for a divorce, or the potential to become humble and selfless, and make it work. Divorce is SO easy to think about when you’re selfish. SO easy . I was married so young the first time . I married someone because they were my first love , and because I didn’t think anything mattered than the fact that I loved him. I don’t care about virtue. I didn’t care if he loved the lord with all his heart. Love was all that mattered I thought  . I learned the painful hard way what happens when God isn’t in the center . What happens when you disregard red flags, God’s gentle nudging, and your own intuition . Because of what I went through so young, I was able to learn the massive importance of what love really means and what it DOESNT mean. From having my sweet Sophia young and raising her alone in the beginning I was able to learn quickly that love is patient, selfless , and never wavering . She taught me that. From growing alone to marrying a man who has taught me selfless love , I can see now what love really means in a marriage . My marriage has its ups and downs, but this time around I’m able to look at his huge oak tree and understand it better . I’m able to learn what every season means ... and that while winter comes , print does also, in all its glorious radiance . So... back to my analogy .

So the trimmers, they climb that massive ladder, and work their butts off to cut those branches, and restore the luster. They make it to reap the beauty of summer and that beauty of a tree. Tending the tree is way worth it in the long haul. Like a famous proverb teaches "nothing worth having comes easy." A good strong marriage certainly does not come without it's fair share of work. What happens to a tree or even bushes if you don’t trim them? They die at some point . They simply die. 

You know, writing for me is a passion. It’s my therapy . It allows my weird brain to do what it wants , and allows me to think how my ADHD brain thinks. I may or may not be on to something but I know this . Trim those branches y’all. Fertilize. Pluck the weeds. Nourish the hell out of your marriage . Don’t let kids take over . Don’t let work, Social time , or anything else come before your marriage . Your kids will thank you. Your marriage will thank you. Your heart will thank you. 

Love is worth every second . Marriage is worth evert sacrifice. God in the center is crucial. Crucial. Having humility is crucial. Man I’m so bad at being humble when it comes to my marriage . It’s so easy to blame the other person. It’s so easy to just allow those leaves to pile up. Rake those leaves girlfriend . Rake em, bag em, and send em off! 





Let's be real

Shoutout to all the women out there loving themselves in a world that doesn't make it easy. It's hard sometimes to look in the mirror and think" dang I look good " or " I rocked this day " when you see pictures on social media , in magazines, and on TV shoes portraying perfection. Here's a reminder for you- behind every smile is someone struggling with things you struggle with . Behind every planned outfit is a body that has scars, stretch marks, and areas that are not so pretty. Behind every lense are hundreds of bad pictures. Usually only one works.

We are human. We all wake up the same . Bare faces, hair a mess, and eye boogers. Don't forget that.

In a world where the bad, the hard, and ugly doesn't exist often, let's remember to stay real. To show the not so pretty things. Being an influencer it is my job to bring you fashion , beauty , and lifestyle, at least that's what my contract says . But really and truly it's my job to remind my readers that we are human . To love yourself . To be forgiving to yourself. #LTKholidaystyle #LTKholidaywishlist #LTKholidayathome #LTKhome #LTKsalealert #LTKshoecrush #LTKstyletip #LTKunder50 #LTKunder100 Shop my daily looks by following me on the app j's . To remind you that we all wake up the same.

So love yourself today. Be good to yourself. #liketkitBe real. Be vulnerable. Love others . Pray . Drink strong coffee .


Skin routine

I've always been so intrigued by skin care. I wound like to say I did the smart thing and have covered it for years , but I did not . Instead I wore sun screen , baked my face , and used all the expensive products there are for youthful looking skin. If only I had known keeping your skin youthful meant covering it , using a simple routine , and having monthly TLC treatments .



I'm turning 33 this week, and one of my goals for myself this year is to revitalize my skin. I've always had " good skin" and I'm so grateful for that, but good skin doesn't mean youthful skin. When I got sick three years ago my skin took a beating with treatment , radiation, so many medications, and the pure agony and stress my body was undergoing haggard my face . On top of that, constant drastic weight loss seemed to suck the life out of my skin. 

2018 is going to be my year. I'm slowly getting stronger, healthier , and I'm putting myself back together. There are many things that broke down on my the last few years , but my skin is what showed most. I lost the glow, the youthful cheeks, and the elasticity. I had melasma from treatments making my hormones go crazy , and for the first time I bought concealer. No ma'am I said! I have to fix this!  

About a year ago I met the skin God. Yes she exists . She walks out of a room and you're instantly excited. She knows what she's doing and she's here to conquer . When Tomi first checked my skin out it was in awful shape. I was still on my picc line and I was just a mess . She however knew what she needed to do to start the process of turning my skin around , and a year later my skin looks 5 years younger then it did a year ago, and turning 33 is looking good on my skin. My skin gets better and better , and I couldn't be more comfortable with a naked face than I am now.  


When Tomi showed me such a simple daily skin routine ( see above )  , I was surprised . Good skin was this easy?  With the right diet, lots of water ,good product, and monthly skin treatments, I finally had great skin again . Retinol, vitamin c serum, and hyaluronic acid used daily was a total game changer. For additional goodness I added #firstaidbeauty which I absolutely love , especially their highlighter and their skin primer . Monthly facials that purge my skin of impurities and resurface my skin made my skin glow from within changed the way my skin worked . When I decided to go deeper , Tomi had me try Erbium Laser . Let me say this . Just do it. Budget for your skin, set five days were you don't have to look good, and Thank me later . I've done the deep peels which are great, but this laser was magical . It was quick , painless , and within a day I noticed my pores seemed to disappear. Today three weeks later , my skin still seems poreless, my makeup goes on like butter , and my skin is youthful. Tiny lines and wrinkles are softened, and elasticity has been boosted. 


If you can do one thing for your physician self in the New Year, learn to take care of your skin. Not only could it save your life, but who doesn't want to look ten years younger than they really are? Fillers and Botox seem to be the only answer to younger looking skin, but it's not. Don't get me wrong I love some Botox if it's done right , but good skin comes from hydration, nutrition, treatments and what your putting on your skin.  

For more info on the treatments I like please visit the skin clinic located in East Memphis. For any additional Info, just ask! Cheers! 

#beauty #beautyblogger #skin #laser #erbium #ontheblog #skinroutine #product  

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Walking with faith ..

As I hiked today I found this stepping stone and I smiled . A year ago I woke up in the hospital with another scar down my chest. The last three years have been filled with a lot of suffering and disappointment , but also many blessings . The last 12 months were major hits . I couldn't stay up no matter how hard I tried . Today I hiked 3.5 mikes with my precious brother @sebboom and Koda Bear. As I walked I couldn't believe that 12 months ago I was laying in a hospital bed again, then on this exact day I relapsed 6 months ago AGAIN.

There has been joy, gratitude and growth . Sometimes when you're in a storm it's hard to see the break in the clouds, and hard to be grateful for the suffering.

Over the last three years, there have been plenty of days when the world felt like it was caving in – blocking the light, blocking the hope. On these days, I once panicked until it felt like anxiety would hold my spirit hostage forever.

I finally realized if I kept thinking that way , I would not get back up from the hit I had suffered . I had to hit back. I had to see the blessings in the midst of suffering. I had to remember that the beginning is always the hardest. I had to learn that even if I got knocked down seven times , I could get up eight.

That's what you have to do ... you have to look backwards sometimes to remind yourself of how far you have traveled.

My goal this week is to walk every day. I dreamt of days I could just walk in nature. It's here .  I can't waste it. I'm choosing  to stand back up on my  feet and let each obstacle make me stronger and more determined. When you get hit hard, you can choose to fight back and keep going. Because it’s not how hard you get hit or how much you get hit that counts. It’s what you learn from each hit and each fall, how much you can take and how high you keep rising after each hit. Cheers to standing up. Cheers to December. Cheers to being brave. Cheers to Santa visiting me. Cheers to the best support system in the world ( not all pictured but you know who you are ). Blessed!!!


Gluten free sugar cookies

This sugar cookie recipe is my fave! It took me so long to find the right one. This recipe is easy, gluten free, and oh so good!


Yield:3 dozen cookies ( only about 12 if you do them thick like I do. Double the recipe , you won't regret it! )


Prep Time: 30 minutes


Cook Time: 6-8 minutes


Total Time: 38 minutes


Soft cut out sugar cookie recipe that keeps its shape and dough does not need to be chilled before baking- perfect edges every time!



* 1 Cup unsalted butter

* 1 Cup granulated white sugar

* 1 teaspoon vanilla extract

* 1 teaspoon almond extract

* 1 egg

* 2 teaspoons baking powder

* 3 cups all purpose gluten free flour (I like Pamela's ) 


1. Preheat oven to 350° F.

2. In the bowl of your mixer cream butter and sugar until smooth, at least 3 minutes

3. Beat in extracts and egg.

4. In a separate bowl combine baking powder with flour and add a little at a time to the wet ingredients. The dough will be very stiff. If it becomes too stiff for your mixer turn out the dough onto a countertop surface. Wet your hands and finish off kneading the dough by hand.

5. DO NOT CHILL THE DOUGH. Divide into workable batches, roll out onto a floured surface and cut. You want these cookies to be on the thicker side (closer to 1/4 inch rather than 1/8).

6. Bake at 350 for 6-8 minutes. Let cool on the cookie sheet until firm enough to transfer to a cooling rack.


5 simple ways to decorate for Fall.


Im all about simplicity during the holidays y'all. I also really don't like spending much money on holiday decor since the trends come in and out and then I'm stuck with decor I won't use again! Here are a few tips on a simple , affordable way to decorate for Fall! Comment below if you have any tips to add! 



When I don’t have time for big changes in our home, I concentrate on decorating a few main spaces: the fireplace mantle, front door entrance , the living room , and the kitchen. Since these are the places we spend the most time, and the places guests will see when they visit, they will have the biggest impact to make our home feel like fall.



Fall is all about pumpkins so grab a few decorative ones and sprinkle them around your home. I love the white pumpkins because they will fit in with any color scheme. The small pumpkins can easily be added all over the house too. Place them around a bookcase, on a shelf, or even on a tray on your coffee table.

I sprinkled a few pumpkins on our mantle, added a couple on the coffee table in our living room , and still have a few more to play with.


3. USE PRINTABLES FOR INSTANT FALL DECOR or a letter board for cute sayings .


Printables are my favorite way to add a touch of the season without any work. I have a few rustic frames that I use all the time, I just change out the printable to match the new decor. And printables can be used anywhere you have artwork. In a frame on the mantle, in a gallery wall or even on a shelf. Letter boards are popular right now and man they are just so fun! I love changing out the sayings , and it's a great job to give your kids!



Decorating for fall can be as easy as adding a bowl of apples and pears to a beautiful bowl or tray along with som pretty greenery. I love to stay as simple as possible and this is my favorite way to make a centerpiece .  A bonus is the kids can easily enjoy a healthy snack from your decor ! This one with the apples was so simple and just what I wanted . The greenery was $3.00 from target and I will be able to use it all holiday season! I love using squash , artichokes and pumpkins too.



Throw pillows are the easiest way to add some seasonal decor to your home. Toss them on every sofa, bench, or even make floor pillows that can just be tossed on the floor. Pillow covers are super easy to make, or you can buy inexpensive ones for the perfect budget friendly fall decor.


Last but not least , throw a few pumpkins and fall flowers around your front door and you're done!


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 In my short life I have been through a lot of pain, mentally and physically .   I can simply say I've had a beautiful painful last few years of life. At a young age I've had a lot of loss, many gains, happiness, sadness, I have won a lot and I have lost.  

I never could have imagined having to fight for my life over and over and over. There of been many times during my illness that I have wanted to give up . There have been many times that I did not have the strength to open my eyes let alone get out of bed. There were many times when I watched my hospital monitor and thought let's just let all this go.

What I have realize more than anything is that God will never give you more than you can handle. I know some people scoff at this phrase but it is oh so true. Sometimes we are broke in order to be fixed. I am one of those people. I am grateful now that I was shattered in many different ways. I am nowthe person that God wanted me to be.  I could not get here without immense pain. I could not get here without almost losing my life to see the true beauty in life. I will never look at life the same again and for that I am so blessed. Not many people can see life the way I know I can see it now.  I do not think it is possible unless you almost lose it.  Nothing can keep me down now. Nothing. Throughout my illness prayer has been  what has kept me opening my eyes. Prayer has kept me moving. Without it I am nothing. Over the last 2 1/2 years I have collected so many different books from people bringing them to the hospital , and written journals upon journals of favorite quotes . I have hundreds of cards from strangers and loved ones and I have countless inspirational quotes  that I have been sent. Here are just a few of my favorite quotes that have really helped me. Just remember whatever your struggle may be  struggles are here to teach you something.  If you are broken it is so you can be fixed. Do not waste being broken .  Don't ever forget that there is blood involved when it comes to reaching the top of a mountain . Let the cling shape you. You always come out stronger. 


Let me tell you something you already know. The world ain't all sunshine and rainbows. It is a very mean and nasty place and it will beat you to your knees and keep you there permanently if you let it. You, me, or nobody is gonna hit as hard as life. But it ain't how hard you hit; it's about how hard you can get hit, and keep moving forward. How much you can take, and keep moving forward. That's how winning is done. Now, if you know what you're worth, then go out and get what you're worth. But you gotta be willing to take the hit, and not pointing fingers saying you ain't where you are because of him, or her, or anybody. Cowards do that and that ain't you. You're better than that.


The mind is everything. What you think you become. 


Let no one ever come to you without leaving better and happier. Be the living expression of God’s kindness: kindness in your face, kindness in your eyes, kindness in your smile.


I know God won’t give me anything I can’t handle. I just wish he didn’t trust me so much.


Be faithful in small things because it is in them that your strength lies.


Make the most of yourself by fanning the tiny, inner sparks of possibility into flames of achievement.


What can you do to promote world peace? Go home and love your family.


Love to be real, it must cost – it must hurt – it must empty us of self.


Strength does not come from winning. Your struggles develop your strengths. When you go through hardships and decide not to surrender, that is strength


All the adversity I’ve had in my life, all my troubles and obstacles, have strengthened me.... You may not realize it when it happens, but a kick in the teeth may be the best thing in the world for you


Difficulties are meant to rouse, not discourage. The human spirit is to grow strong by conflict.


Sometimes when you pick up your child you can feel the map of your own bones beneath your hands, or smell the scent of your skin in the nape of his neck. This is the most extraordinary thing about motherhood – finding a piece of yourself separate and apart that all the same you could not live without


The most precious gift we can offer anyone is our attention. When mindfulness embraces those we love, they will bloom like flowers


Pain is temporary. It may last a minute, or an hour, or a day, or a year, but eventually it will subside and something else will take its place. If I quit, however, it lasts forever.


I have found the paradox, that if you love until it hurts, there can be no more hurt, only more love.


God gave us pain to remind us we are alive, so we will learn to value the joys and beauty of the world.


Let's plan it!

I'm going to be honest, I was not born type A, nor am I naturally productive. I have always been extremely driven, but the productivity side did not come naturally .

im extremely laid back and have always had the " it will get done no matter what " mentality . I'm the type that always waits until the last minute , then will go hard until I'm finished . I've always been this way , but the last 2 years I've really had to teach myself how to live on a consistent schedule. My body has been through a lot and sometimes it's extremely hard to motivate myself. I would get very overwhelmed when looking down at what all I had to do and would just want to push it aside until I had no more time left to wait. I finally realized if I split things up and made a block schedule, I was highly productive and would hit my goals. I also had to learn how to NOT set myself up for failure. I had to learn that if I set a workout for 2 days later on a day I felt extremely energetic , I may not feel that way two days later . So instead , I learned to block out the workout time, but not to schedule in what kind until the night before or even morning of. Point is, the time was blocked out , so even if my workout meant walking , I had it scheduled and didn't set myself up for disappointment.

My hats off to the mommas who are productive so naturally. You're rockstars! 

Here are my tips . Enjoy! 


Focus on minutes, not hours. There are 1,440 minutes in every day and there is nothing more valuable than time. You must master your minutes to master your life.

Focus only on one thing. Invest the first part of your day on meditating on your blessings then the first goal of your day, followed by the next once you have completed your first.

Throw away your to-do list; instead schedule everything on your calendar. Half the stuff written on to do list doesn't get done . Instead write your schedule on a calendar and put your day in to blocks . It sounds like a pain, but it will help you have a highly productive day. “There is always more to be done, more that should be done, always more than can be done.” know what you value in life. God, family time, exercise, giving back, a little you time . If you consciously allocate your 1,440 minutes a day to each area you value (i.e., you  put it on your calendar) and then you stick to the schedule.

Beat procrastination with time travel:

Your future self can’t be trusted. Seriously.  That’s because we are “time inconsistent.” I buy veggies today because I think we’ll eat healthy salads all week; then we throw out green rotting mush in the future. People will buy a workout series because they think they are going to start exercising vigorously and yet the box sits unopened one year later. I ask myself , what can I do now to make sure my future self does the right thing? Anticipate how you will self-sabotage in the future, and come up with a solution to defeat your future self.

Plan dinner the day of:

How many times do we get to 3:00 PM and think " man there is no way I have the energy to cook dinner ". I'm there all the time, but I've figured out if I plan dinner the day before or even that morning, I stick to the plan and don't fold. If I plan dinner days in advance I don't always stick to the plan . Life changes . I get it . Some days turn out really long and you're like, hell let's order pizza. But once again, if you devote 30 minutes of your day to planning and prepping dinner, you will end up sitting down to a home cooked meal no matter how long your day was. Plan a night off of cooking in advance.

Give yourself a break:

Seriously. Schedule in some time during the week when you can just be . Whether you're binging on a TV show or out to a long lunch with girlfriends, give yourself that break. You will feel recharged and ready to get back to a schedule the next day.


Sweater :Vicidolls 

Sneakers:Golden Goose  

Planner: Target  

Letter board: Amazon  


Macrobiotic chicken soup

 For the stock

1 whole, small-sized chicken, (roughly 1.2-1.4kg) feet and neck included (optional) I get mine Pre roasted at Whole Foods if I'm low on time! 

2 large onions, finely chopped

1/2 tablespoon (loosely packed) finely chopped sage

1 teaspoon (loosely packed) finely chopped thyme

1/2 tablespoon apple cider vinegar

1 large carrot

1 large stick of celery

For the soup

2 litres of chicken stock (extracted from stock-making recipe)

2 cups shredded chicken meat (extracted from stock making recipe)

1 1/2 cups finely chopped celery

1 1/2 cups finely chopped carrots

2 - 5 cloves garlic minced garlic (a garlic crusher works a treat)

1 tablespoon finely grated ginger

1 teaspoon finely grated turmeric

1 cup (loosely packed) finely chopped parsley

1/2 cup (loosely packed) finely chopped fresh coriander

1 can green lentils, drained and rinsed (optional)

generous seasoning of sea salt or 1 cup brown rice .


Simmer all day! 


The golden rule

"It is easy enough to be friendly to one's friends. But to befriend the one who regards himself as your enemy is the quintessence of true religion. The other is mere business." —Mohandas Gandhi 

Man oh man. Let me tell you what. I was really and let me emphasize REALLY tested this week when it came to loving someone who is in turn trying to hurt me and my family. I was truly tested this week on what it means to love like Jesus loves us, to exercise the golden rule.  To pray for those who hurt you and hate you. To weep for them instead of spitting on them. To choose to love them which gives you the power. 

This is a experience that those close to us know about ( thank you for your support and prayers)  but to those who do not , I am sharing these thoughts with you because of the amount of bullying that goes on especially with teens, to the hatred , jealousy , and bitterness that goes on in the lives of adults. 

Love Your Enemy is the ultimate expression of the Golden Rule. Why? How would you like it if people who tried to hurt you turned around and loved you? Great! They would no longer be your enemies! So since you would like your enemies to love you, you have to love them. If you love them, they cease being your enemies and are only one to themselves. 

Treat others the way you want to be treated and Whatever is hateful to yourself, do not do to others, are behavioral formulations of the Golden Rule. Love you enemy is the emotional formulation. If we follow the behavioral formulations, we need to consciously consider the right thing to do in each separate situation. When we follow the emotional formulation and feel love for others, we will usually treat them the right way without needing to constantly deliberate about it. I'm not saying it comes easy . It didn't come easy  for me this week. But it takes a lot more energy to hate someone back than it does to love them. 

Loving our enemies does not mean that we must let them keep hurting us. When we truly love people, we have to stop them the best we can from doing things that can harm themselves or other innocent people. But we do it from love, not hatred. We do it for the good and not to get back

The Golden Rule puts me in charge. I am going to turn you into my friend even if you treat me like an enemy. How? By consistently treating you like a friend even when you are treating me like an enemy. Before long, you will start treating me like a friend because you are biologically programmed for reciprocity–to treat me the way I am treating you. We teach this to our babies at such a young age. So the Golden Rule is the ultimate empowerment. 

Now days you see all this anti bullying social media stuff and you see the signs in schools. Instead of " take the bully by the horns " how about living by the golden rule? If just a few of us loved our enemies back, imagine the difference it would make. Love is power . Let's spread love . Let's teach love . Let's live by the golden rule.  


Week 1 workout

As a  Busy mama there is nothing I love more than being able to get a good workout at home. I can workout in my pj's ? Sure . Drink my semi warm coffee in between sets? Even better .

100 jumping jacks  

100 crunches  

100 squats  

25 push ups  

25 burpees  

do this circuit 3 times with a two minute rest in between. You will do this daily until you get to Friday. Friday is 30 minutes of cardio. Go kill it! 




Skin cleanse

  1. There is nothing I love more than a dewy fresh face! It's so hard now says to find the right skin care .  Everything is being thrown at you left and right and it's hard to make the right decision.  I finally sat down and truly started educating myself on skin. It is such a complex subject. After lots of reading and research I finally realized that my skin needed what the rest of my body needs. Nutrients. Not Band-Aids.  I realized that the best thing for my skin was nutrients we can find on this earth. Also my skin soaks up everything I put on it. Why would I want to put chemicals in to my body? I love able to use products that I know we're not harming my body.  After two years of so much medication and treatment my skin really had a fit. I have truly had to work so hard to find the right combination of nutrients for my skin. Bottom line natural products have proven best.  I don't have time for a long retain and so I wanted to find products that works great and kept my skin routine quick. I have been using a vitamin C serum and a HA acid for the past three months and I love what it's done for my skin. I wanted to add a little more nutrients though. I discovered  Beauty oils a few months ago and I cannot say enough amazing things about them. Inhad never used a oil cleanser and my gosh I was missing out! This SW apricot cleanser is simply perfect. I also discovered honey, apple cider vinegar, and many other products I could find in my fridge that were so great for my skin. SW basics products are exactly what I was looking for. They incorporate in the ingredients that I know work.  I cannot wait to try every single product they have and can't wait to share it with you!  Below is a skin cleanse that I did ( sharing from SW) and I urge you to try it! Let me know if you have any questions!

Skin cleanse : Take your makeup off really, really well the night before you start the cleanse. We’re going to be washing our faces with water for two whole days. So I’m gonna need you to do some deep cleaning before we start. Exfoliate. Cleanse. Do three rounds with your favorite makeup remover. Get really really shiny clean. Find ONE ingredient or ONE product as your emergency crutch. For me, it’s Tea tree oil . That’s because it’s antibacterial and moisturizing. So if I’m feeling suddenly gross or dry, I can massage some of it on and feel better instantly. Other options: olive oil, apple cider vinegar diluted in some water, plain water, coconut oil, honey (apply then rinse). Again, these are all emergency ingredients. Ideally, you are giving your skin a complete and total break so it has some time to clean and heal itself. But if you’re stressing, wash your face with water over and over. Dab coconut oil hear and there. Whatever you need, as long as it’s simple and [for real] natural. Get your hands off your face. I’m serious. I should have put this as #1 but I know it’s going to cause a full-blown anxiety attack, and I wanted you to get through the post first. I should have dedicated an entire chapter in Skin Cleanse to how much we wreck our faces by touching/picking/scratching/popping and whatever else those little creepster hands are doing all day. RESIST. The more you do this the better the results will be. Find something else to do.


A happier me

Give yourself a 5 minute glam and throw something cute on. I don't care if you have littles, it's 5 minutes! 5. Stuff them in the bathroom with you. A quick skin routine, throwing your hair up in a cute pony tail, and a little lip gloss and mascara can make you feel like a million bucks . Throw on that easy dress and boom. Momma feeling good! Do this for yourself. I promise it's worth it. 


Start your day with a prayer . Even if it's just two minutes start your day by thanking the one who gave you this day. Ask for the things you need spiritually , physically , mentally . Pray throughout the day. Seriously. Like, all the day long . the second you feel sad, anxious, worried, overwhelmed, or just in need of a pick me up, use your direct line to the big guy upstairs. he hears you, knows you, loves you, and wants to hear from you! lay it all out for him, and let him carry those feelings with you. Remember , God is a gentlemen , he will carry the load.


Look for the simple joys. this, for a busy mom, might be a shower, a Starbucks, or a quiet naptime. focus on the joyous moments in your day. There are so many if you stop and notice them. Allowing yourself to savor a moment of sheer tranquility has the ability to get you through a long day. Pay attention to the little things, and replay those moments over and over when your day gets busy or hard. Smile up at the sun. 


Counting your blessings. Sometimes life gets really hard. Really really hard . Then we only start seeing the negative. We are all guilty of it. If we stop and think about the blessings that we do have, the negativity vanishes! This girl has had to really get good at counting the blessings let me tell you, but when you start to look for them, for even the smallest blessings, everything becomes positive. Remember...even our mom duties could be taken away from us at any moment. cherish them. Getting out of bed every day is a blessing. 


Find time to workout, meditate , read, flip through a magazine, or just something to unwind and focus on yourself. With  all our lists, busy schedules, and daily obstacles we need to make sure we take a moment to focus on us. Us time revives us. Be it the mind, body, soul, or all three make sure to make time for you. 


You are perfectly flawed

 "You are imperfect, permanently and inevitably flawed. And you are beautiful".

 There is nothing more rare, nor more       beautiful, than a woman being unapologetically herself; comfortable in her perfect imperfection. To me, that is the true essence of beauty. But it's hard right? It's damn hard. Especially in this day and age . 

I say we say  goodbye to our inner critic, and take this pledge to be kinder to ourselves and others. Confidence is all in your head . You either talk yourself in to being confident or you compare yourself to others and feel awful about yourself . There is nothing worse than not feeling confident in your own skin and nothing better then not thinking twice about putting on that swim suite .  Believe me. I've been on both ends . 

In this day and age we compare ourselves to everythibg that is not real. We do it to ourselves without even thinking twice about it. Do you know what screams confidence ? Someone who IS confident . Someone who knows they have flaws but is proud of where they are . Someone who loves the body God has given them and promises to take care of it . That's confidence .  

How do I know this? Because once upon a time a long time ago i made my living as a fitness model. I was paid to look a certain way. My worth was in my looks. If I didn't have a perfect six pack or perfect glutes I was failing. I had to be perfect all the time. I put so much in to my appearance that I forgot about the inside. I forgot that the inside needs the most cultivating. Having the perfect body was all that mattered. It's what I was paid to do.

6 years later I have 24 scars covering my chest , stomach and sides of my body. My breast have been gutted and my six pack is no more.  I will never forget when I got home from my first major surgery. I had been in the hospital for two weeks and had not been myself.  I remember looking at myself in the mirror and sobbing for hours. Not only was I 90 pounds but my skin was white, my eyes were sunken, and I literally looked like an eight-year-old boy.  I almost did not even recognize myself. But you see, this ended up being a beautiful experience for me. It taught me so much. My scars are reminders of something beautiful. A journey . A very long journey that changed every ounce of me for the best. Something that broke me but I didnt stay broken. Something that tries to hurt me but i didn't let it take me.  It's a memory of something beautiful, traumatic, and victorious all at the same time . 

So let's embrace our scars . Our stretch marks. Our beauriful imperfections. Lets remember that our bodies have given life. That they have overcome obstacles. Lets remember we are powerhouses. That we are as strong as we let ourselves be. Let's take care of the body God gave us.  


This thing called life

This last week a precious man who was bigger than life and so incredibly loved went to be with Jesus . He was my husbands best friend and let me tell you, everyone should model after the kind of friend Matt was. 

When someone passes you start to tell stories . You hear hundreds of stories . You cry and laugh and cry some more . Little things that maybe you never realized you noticed about that person come to light. Friday night my husband and the guys all close to Matt had a get together at our house in honor of him. At the end of the night my husband  came in with tears in his eyes and said " someone left their cooler ... would Matt not always leave his cooler at our house after being over ?! " Little things and big things are noticed once someone is gone . Even something like Matt leaving a cooler . He was the life of the party, always had a smile on his face , was kind to everyone and never judged anyone .  All of this prompted so many thoughts in my head . What will we be remembered for ? 

Fighting for my life the past 2 years has been exhausting . Its been agonizing . It's been overwhelming . Sometimes it's felt very lonely . Matt was the one person in our life who truly knew what it felt like . He would say it all the time to Dee and I. He would say only I know what she's going through and I don't know how she's doing it . He was that guy.. that guy who truly cared. That friend who ached for you. That friend who came around during recoveries just to have some FaceTime . He comforted , he supported , he sympathized , and he made you laugh. 

Matt will be remembered for so many amazing things . It makes you take a step back and think , am I living well enough? When I go, are people going to say I was great ? That I loved hard? That I was a good spouse, parent , daughter, and friend ? Did I let life get in the way of truly living ? Did I care more about things that are fleeting? Did I go the extra mile to be a person everyone knew they could count on? Did I love big ? Was I two faced? Did I hold anger ? Was I real?  It's hard to be real in this day and age... people hide behind their phones , behind social media . I've got people who follow my blog or who like my photos but if I was to see them in Whole Foods they would just keep walking .

Was I jealous of other people or did I count my blessings and relish what I have? Did I let insecurities make me a bitter or caddy person or did I work on myself while being in awe of others? Did I let clothes, bags, shoes, cars, or my house define me or did my actions and my heart define me? 

Did I use my hall passes on selfish things or did I pick up the phone and call that girlfriend who is going through a break up and ask her if she would like to go to dinner? Was I there for those who were there for me? 

Losing someone always puts these questions in your head I feel like . But does it change you? Sometimes we go through life feeling invincible. I probably used to. When you life can potentially be  taken from you it changes you. You stop feeling invincible and you start cherishing every single day . You get a real wake up slap in the face. We are saying goodbye to someone who has left a hole in so many hearts . Rooms will never be the same without him in them. What will rooms be like without you in them? As we say are goodbyes to someone so loved it hit me so hard that my husband and family could have been in this position the last two years with me  . It broke me to pieces in a way I can't describe . I somehow  went to bed this weekend loving my husband harder than I have ever loved him. It made me want to pull my kids even tighter . I messaged friends who I haven't been able to see in a while . I begged God to show me how I can grow . Times like this are heartbreaking but they also have a purpose . They can teach you many things and they can gift you with a even better life . Life is what you put in to it. Live today like it's the only day you have . Reach out to someone today. Say hello to someone in your workout class who you have never made the effort to say hello to. Message your husband someone sweet. Kiss your kids extra. At the end of the day thank God you're here and ask him to show you areas in your life that you can work on to be a even better person. That's when life starts getting really good ... when God is able to mold you . 

Don't  waste your time and energy trying to compete with others. Be you.  Sometimes you're ahead , sometimes you're behind . The race is long and in the end it's only with yourself . Be happy. You never know how much time you have left.




Dear daughter

To my daughter:

I dreamt of you since I was a little girl . 

Since I was a little girl toting around a baby doll, I have been practicing to be your mommy. I have dreamed about reading you bedtime stories and tucking you in. Your perfect eyes and warm smile, I’ve pictured them in my mind countless times. I’ve hoped for the special connection that would bond us together, unshakably. That we find the perfect balance between parent and someone who you see as your greatest friend . 

I want to be the one who knows your secrets, and your dreams, and your fears.

I worry about the rough times, when you learn everyone isn’t your friend and some people are unnecessarily cruel.

I want to protect you from the evil in the world, but also prepare you for it.

I hope I can be the mother who teaches you kindness, patience, and forgiveness. 

I hope you never feel the sting of being different, but rather embrace it, knowing that our differences are what make us beautiful and allow us to grow.

Do not let bad experiences harden you. Use them to gain insight and empathy; you will learn compassion as a result. You have already seen so much at such an early age while I have been sick. You had to see me dying at such a young age . You had to see so much suffering . I see now that it only made you more amazing . 

I hope your tongue is not irreversibly sharp when you are angry. I have been like that in the last. Words have been my dagger . Please do not let your emotions overpower your ability to remain kind. I have had to learn to harness my emotions and not let them ruin my chance at peace . 

I want you to be strong and stay grounded in what you know is right. You will get so much farther .  If you must stray from the crowd to remain true to your values, I hope you are courageous enough to do so. I believe in you. 

I hope your heart is open, and you are able to trust. Please don’t let your insecurities impede your path, the way I did. Always remember YOU ARE WORTH IT. 

Don’t cling to the comforts of what you know. Be bold and explore your curiosities. Embrace failure as a necessity of growth. Do not fear it; it will teach you the greatest lessons of all.

I know you will find your way, as I have found mine. I wish it were possible that you never experience pain or sorrow, but you must. It will shape you in a positive way, if you let it. 

You will stumble and fall and, no doubt, be discouraged. But you will stand up, dust yourself off, and take another step, because you are strong. Because you are my daughter and that's what I've taught you to do.

It is your path to walk. I can’t do it for you, and I don’t want to. Oh the places you will go my darling . Always remember ,  I will support you every step of the way, because…


You are strong, you are beautiful, you are worth it and you are a kings daughter .  Never settle . Never settle . 



Blueberry peach crumble

Happy #humpday ! There is a new recipe on the blog . Y'all. This is hands down a guest favorite as well my my husbands . Every time I make it I'm asked for the recipe. This is the easiest dessert ever . It screams southern summer! Enjoy!


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For the Fruit:

2 pounds organic frozen peaches

1 lb frozen blueberries ( or you can change to more blueberries etc )

2 teaspoons grated lemon zest

2 tablespoons freshly squeezed lemon juice

1/4 cup organic cane sugar

¼ cup all-purpose gluten free flour


For the Crumble:

1 cup all-purpose gluten free flour

1/3 cup organic granulated sugar

¼ cup living brown organic sugar, lightly packed

½ teaspoon salt

¼ teaspoon ground cinnamon

¼ pound (1 stick) cold unsalted butter, diced

Preheat the oven to 350 degrees OR choose to place this on a grill! I love placing a dish on the grill and letting the heat do the work! Gives it the best taste and it only takes about 10 minutes ! 


Allow peaches and blueberries to thaw for a few hours ( instead of microwaving them)  Add the lemon zest, lemon juice, granulated sugar, and flour. Toss well. Gently mix in the fruit . Allow the mixture to sit for 5 minutes.  Spoon the mixture into ramekins or custard cups.


For the topping, combine the flour, granulated sugar, brown sugar, salt, cinnamon, and the butter in a bowl. Rub the mixture with your fingertips until it’s in big crumbles, then sprinkle evenly over the fruit. Place the ramekins on a sheet pan lined with parchment paper and bake for 40 to 45 minutes, until the tops are browned and crisp and the juices are bubbly. Serve warm or at room temperature with vanilla ice cream or sales caramel ice cream or simply omit for less calories .


If you want to make these early, store the unbaked crumbles in the refrigerator and bake before dinner.


Fake it till you make it

As a kid growing up, my mom would always have me make my bed. It didn't seem logical to me, because I was just going to mess it up anyway when I got back in bed that night. 

Why make my bed when all I was going to do was sleep in it? I still can't tell you why she had me make it, but I can tell you that having to make it everyday from the age of three to eighteen, I learned that a clean house is a happy one.
Walking into my room with my bed made gave me this "ah, I'm home" feeling. I totally understand it even better now. As a mom of three , my house always seems to be off in one or two areas. That's life with kids anyone will tell you, and I know it's okay to let a mess be here and there while my kids play, but still nothing beats a clean house. So, sure the kitchen and living room might look like a bomb went off, but at least my bed is made.... sometimes. Sorry mom.
I dream of a maid who comes everyday and cleans, but that's not reality. I do have a little magic that shows up to my house twice a week though. Yep I said it, I have a house keeper that comes twice a week. I would starve before I ever lived my weeks without her. No seriously I ate lentil soup for a week one time when I was a single mom and just starting off as a medical rep. I was on a low Salary while training and I didn't have time to train clients like I used to. I thought I will seriously starve before I let her go! 

So yeah. I have her twice a week. This is one of this moments where I am like" man you sound like a spiked brat ". Here's the thing.  When I was working full time as a medical rep and in surgery every day all day, I didn't have time to clean my house . I would get home at night and I just wanted to spend time with my family . Not fold 10 loads of laundry . When I got sick, I needed help even more . My house keeper has been with me 6 years and as I said , she is pure magic. She knows what I like and how to make me feel like my world is going round , even on the most chaotic days. I finally realized one day that sometimes you just have to let it go. I figured if I was a good housekeeper I didn't need help. Right? Funny I know. Sounds like I needed a humility lesson. what's even better is I thought her coming twice a week would mean I didn't have to clean. WRONG. I still have piles of dishes daily, 3 dogs to clean up after daily ( I'm psycho about my floors so I mop and swiffer them daily ) and mounds of laundry . I still have the daily chores. It's the deep cleaning stuff I can't ever get to! 

I finally realized I just couldn't do it all. No one can. So you gotta cut your losses . You gotta sit down and say what's going to give me a better quality of life? If I was to have some humility for a minute, what would change? 

As a mother , I think we are our biggest critics. We are our biggest competition. We see other moms doing more than us and we judge ourselves. Oh you bakes those beautiful muffins for the school snack today ? I went to Whole Foods and stuffed a bunch of muffins in a bag. You cut out the sandwich with cookie cutters to make perfect hearts? Now I really feel like a failure! LOL! 

Heres the thing Mommies...someone is always going to be ahead of us. But here's why. No one walks in your shoes every day. Some people have more time then others . Some mommas kids are easier than others. Some mommas just have a little extra drive in the morning . That's ok! We all have our special things about us! I can guarantee your child could write down a hundred special things that you do for them right now .  

Figuring out what helps gave me a better quality of life made me so much happier. I can't tell you the feeling I have when I have been gone a straight 7 hours and I walk in the house with the kids and groceries and my house is perfect. I used to feel guilty,  now I'm just a damn winner.  

Give yourself a break! Find out what makes your life go round. Cut your losses and take a breather! Stop competing against yourself! When you get in to bed at night, are you really going to lose sleep if you took the easy way out on something? When I get in to my freshly washed sheets that smell of lavender at night, and my bedroom is perfectly together because Maritza came today,  I just sing that song in my head " all I do is win win win" .  

It's a messy life, but it's my life, and it sure is a dang good one.